Back to Bed....

Early Tuesday morning I woke up with fairly strong contractions coming every 5-7 minutes. I waited awhile, drank some water, and finally woke Josh up to discuss what we should do. After placing a call to the on-call doctor, we headed down to the hospital just to "make sure" that everything was okay. By the time we got there, my contractions had slowed way down, but after checking me, they found that I was dilated to 2cm and 70% effaced (sorry if that's too much info for some of you :) Being that Brax was born at 34 weeks, they decided to keep me for 24 hours to watch me. Well, my contractions started again around 7am yesterday morning, but they were able to stop them with a lot of IV fluid (I look like stay-puff marshmallow girl :) and some oral medication. We had an ultrasound done and it looks like Brody is already over 4 1/2lbs! I guess I am just a great incubator... my babies cook fast! So, they sent me home this morning on bedrest and oral anti-contraction medicine. I'll be on bedrest until 34 weeks (only one week and three days from now :), then I can be up and around and let nature take its course. Being on bedrest is very difficult for a person like myself. I like to keep my house a certain way (especially since nesting has kicked in), make dinner for my family, and care for my kiddo. I have a hard time letting go and letting others take over those responsibilities when I feel like that is my "job." However, I have to keep reminding myself that lying here on the couch and reading books is, indeed, taking care of my family. It's hard to look at the many lists that I had made before this started and know that I have no power to get them accomplished. It's likely that the nursery will not be complete when Brody comes home, my closet will not be reorganized (one of those nesting compulsions), and every corner will not be spotless. But, God has been incredibly good to us. We have family available to help us for the duration of my bedrest, we have a rambunctious two-year old who makes us laugh every day, we have amazing friends who would drop their activities to help us at a moment's notice, and above all, our little family is full of an amazing amount of love. Whether God chooses to bring this baby soon or allows him to wait a few more weeks, I know that our God is good. He is full of love and grace and mercy and His plan will always bring Him glory. I know that many of you have been keeping up with the Farley's blog, but for those of you who have not, you should read some of their inspiring and heart-felt words. I only know of them because Brax and their daughter, Sellers, attend the same preschool. However, they have touched me in so many ways over the past few months. They have shown me, time and time again, that the little things are so insignificant. They have made me hug my little man a little more and place less emphasis on the things of this life that are transient. Houses, cleaning, errands... all of these things will come and go, but the love of our families and our relationship with God are the things that we were made for in this short life. So, keep us in your prayers as we get through the next few weeks and I'll try to get some pictures of Brax up on the blog so that you can enjoy his mischevious little smile!